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[06 Jun 2004|12:00pm] |
Type your username with your:
nose: cheergrl4cavs
elbow: chederrghrl.4cv azvbsx
tongue: cheergrl4cavs
chin: cdhyeder4fvgrsw
feet: cheerggfrrl4cvavds
eyes closed and one finger: chedergrl4cavs
back of hand: fchreretr,tsiu43 dsd.
palm: cvhgrere;lkhbdrttfg 4gsad (got alot of beepin on that one)
mouse: cheergrl4cavs
wrist: bnxcfdfdfgtfrg4rlk c savsx
what can i say i have a talented nose :)
love you andrew <3
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[04 Jun 2004|03:17pm] |
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why are people so fucking gay. i hate how people put on acts around me and i know there fake. So theres another party that im not invited to because fucking emily and marisah care what other people think about me. i fucking sick of this bull shit. i hate high school i cant wait till i get my fuckin licence so i can just leave this place and never come back, i can tell im not fucking wanted here, you guys dont have to tell me, your actions speak louder than anywords you could ever say to me. I fucking hate my life, kill me now.
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[26 May 2004|08:43am] |
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so i have given up on everybody i have liked and like a new person now, i realized this last night and was like hmmmmm, this kids cool, and hes cute, and wicked nice to me, then i go home and im like shit, i like this boy.
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[24 May 2004|07:47pm] |
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Okay, so i guess everyone has noticed, that i...
Lauren Michelle O'Connell the FIRST
sucks at updating her journal. and theres really no point telling what happened because theres just so muche so i guess i will just vent and all you peoples will just have to deal and read. I redid my INFO page and i personally think i did a very wonderful job at it.
***********caution lauren is venting*************
everything has been moving so fast latley, and i really dont think i can handle it. All my friends are changing rihgt in front of my eyes and theres nothing i can do about it. and it sucks more than anything. The whole andrew thing is getting me wicked pissed off, i really like him and i know he likes me, but hes retarded cuz he still i had a G/F (er, kes, sarah please validate for me) I just wish i had that person to be here for me, and i need to have those nights of just sitting on a couch cuddling. im sick of all these thunder storms. I AM DEATHLY AFRAID OF THUNDER AND LIGHTNING. and when there is a storm it doesnt matter how long i have been sleeping i HAVE to wake up, i hate my body.
I wore ben hussleys (i know i splt it wrong no need to tell me) sweat shirt today, I <3 that boy he smells good times ten. the felid tirp was fun, i got to hang out with Mimi and alicia, (pics comming soon) the bus driver was EXTREMELY retarded though, she made us walk 4 miles because she thought it would be quicker (damn traffic) she only passed us 4 times on the way to the resteraunt. i hate bus drivers. so me and alicia and Mimi all got to <Beers Works> and i had NO IDEA what to order, so i decided that i would be safe with nachos. boi was i wrong, it was so incredibly gross and expensive, then we look at our watch and remember that we had to be back at Yawkee St at 11:45 it was now 12:15. so we were like shit, we payed our bill and sprinted to fenway stadiem and yelled at our teachers for not waiting for us. all they said was oops. so we did the tour, <it was lame times 20> so on the way home the bus was leaking out of every nook and craney, oh man, so it was fun (OH MY GOD BIG LIGHTNING STRIKE)
gtg.
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[20 May 2004|06:43pm] |
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How come whenever i start talking about Dj i start to get feelings for him again? can anyone answer that for me? its not even like he told me he didnt want to talk to me ne more, he just acutally stopped talking to me. I got in touch with Andrew his neighbor, and we found out we know eachother through Dj himself. So we started talking and shit, and decided that we have to get together this weekend and nock some sence into Deej. i really miss him, and whenever i try to tell people they give me the speech that i shouldnt like people more that 2 years older than me. but i dont care Deej is different, he cared for me more than anyone ever did. he just changed one day. I loved him more than anything, and when he dissapered from my life i didnt and still dont know what to do.
Im not trying to make a pitty party but seriously guys when i think about him i get all twisted inside.
"hes all i need, my love my valentine"
im not doing ne thing this weekend with any one so yeah
<3
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[19 May 2004|05:29pm] |
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what i do when im bored in class...
come and see
( birrrrrdie )
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[18 May 2004|05:17pm] |
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Okay i just had two itch's but i didnt know which one to itch first, so i itched a spot inbetween that didnt even itch in the frist place. thats what happens when i get so tired.
ERICKA, KESE, SARAH and whoever else wants to do something this weekend leave a comment.
I really like 2 boys i often catch myself sitting in class just daydreaming about what it would be like if just one of them would give me a chance, and now that i keep thinking about it, i have realized that me being single doesnt really work for me. I hate not being loved, I always watch in envy those couples that hold hands in the hallways, and show eachother how much they care. But i have been hurt too many times and i wonder if i could ever love someone the way i loved him. i really dont think i could. But theres always that moment that i want someone to hold me when im sad, or to tell me that everythings going to be alright, and that grades really don't matter. but i guess i just have to wait, and look the other way, and just try to cheer up, i guess i can do that.
( wicked true song read it )
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[12 May 2004|08:31pm] |
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We had to write poems in english today. you guys should rite one too, their kinda fun
I got my braces today. Wicked scary.
( I am What i am poem )
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[09 May 2004|07:43pm] |
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Guys I feel like shit, in more than one way, I feel horrible about last night, and I'm kind of regretting things I did, I wish I wasn’t such a whore, but I can’t really say that cuz technically nothing really happened but oh well.
Friday- Mike gave me a ride home cuz I didn’t want to take the bus, he was driving like 75 on broad st. wicked cool kid, I really like him. I saw Aj and Bri at the common and I flicked them off, and Mike peeled out just to add some spice, and I heard Aj call me a whore. So I got home in about 4 minutes, wish it took longer [sad face]. So I called Derek when I got home to tell him I was home and he could pick me up, and he came and got me around 3:30. So we’re driving down to his house in Manchester and it was fun. I <3 him even though he’s my cousin. So then he left at four to go to some party, so me and the boys played video games until 6 and then we walked to Burger King to get dinner. Derek calls around 11:30 (like I wasn’t sleeping) and tells me he’s not gonna come home till the morning. (He was shit faced I could tell).
Saturday Morning- woke up around 9ish, so then we went to Mickey Dees and got b-fast, then went to Calvin’s little league game they tied the other team 121-121, not really but that’s what the coach told them {its farm league so no one wins no loses} so then Ann brings me home {Derek’s g/f} and we talked about her son.
Last night - Er's surprise party for miss Kesley, So I got there around 4 and helped her finish the attempt of trying to make the base look sum what cool, (the fridge boobs.) Then Er's parents gave her her digie, kind of cool, and then we watched finding nemo cuz we’re cool and I read her instruction manual, also cuz I'm cool. Sarah came while we were about to eat dinner so we asked her if she wanted to eat as well, but she couldn’t cuz she’s a vegetarian I think that’s wicked cool, I wish I was nice enough to not eat animals, but I don’t like I would last 3 days. Then we ate, and everyone called asking for directions, and yes Ericka you did a good job : ). Then brad came from work, he looked cute : ) I approve. So then we went down stairs while Brad changed, and me and Sarah being exceptionally cool, we couldn’t stop laughing we’re too cool and you’re jealous. So then Andrew came <3. So we hung out in the base, and of course we just HAD to play dance machine. I won once!!!!! Ha-ha Ericka don’t blame it on me cheating lol. So then we go out side and have mucho fun, me and Sarah like to shove our very large asses down a baby slide meant for toddlers. We are fat, lol. So it was getting dark, and we were having so much fun outside we just stayed out there, its weird, when I'm with these people, I feel more welcomed than when I am with my friends from my own school. Now I really know why lindz loves her TI friends so much.
Now- So now I am sitting in my chair with a wicked sharp pain and an extremely high pitched ringing sound in my ear. Bull shit, So this is my schedule for the week
MONDAY=- going into school late for a doctors appointment
TUESDAY=- school then ortho appointment to get my four spacers that fell out back in
WEDNESDAY=- going into school late cuz I'm getting my braces at 9:30 going back to school at about 11 {I don’t see the point either}
THURSDAY=- School
FRIDAY=- progress reports…. Grounded again?
SATERDAY=- MS WALK then pool party? At Michelles
SUNDAY=- make up work.
So that’s my week, for those of you who actually read that much
I needa talk to Andrew but I don’t wanna call him, cuz I think I’ll seem easy double you tee ef.
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[05 May 2004|01:56pm] |
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I got my spacers yesterday and my teeth hurt mucho mad, i REALLY hate this. People are being really cool, no really they are. and if you know what im talking about then, seriously need to grow up. I hate how people make a WICKED huge deal about something that really doesnt matter. I hate people. I hate hollis. I hate school. and mostley i hate being grounded.
I think i really like ***** and Nick but once again, no chance. i really like ***** cuz hes wicked cool and nice but too bad someone gives me a wicked hard time for it. I love how people know how to pick up a phone and call you back when they say they are going to. I <3 nick though so i can't be mad at him, he's 19 so that may be a little diss-advantage, but mummie likes him cuz i told him about her, but he doesnt really like her, well hes a dick so i dont care JK!
Kristen and Ashley arent here today i wonder if they are together? i bet they are, oh well, lucky them they arent in gay ass school like i am. Michelle's sitting next to me right now shes wicked pretty, i <3 her.
well i got to go, my teeth are giving me a headache, im kinda debating wheter to take the bus-a-roonie home or to go home with Lindz, but i guess i will take the bus cuz its fun.
so will write later
EDIT- we got this wicked cool thing on T.V its this thing that like you can like pause FF and REW and STOP and CHOOSE WHAT YOU WANT TO WATCH FOR A MOVIE!!!! its not PPV its like an ACUTAL chanel. AHHH its so exciting. <3
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[03 May 2004|05:04pm] |
1.go into your LJ's archives.
2.find your 23rd post (or closest to).
3.find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4.post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions.
And if you didn't have a Valentine for yesterday, don’t worry, you’re still beautiful. You’re still loved.
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[18 Apr 2004|05:49pm] |
I don't care if everyone and therr brother gets pissed bout the shit i write. its the truth, grow up.
<3 laur
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[16 Apr 2004|03:54pm] |
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TODAY WAS WONDERFULL!!!!!!!!!!!
heh. not. i wish i could say all that need's to be said, but i can't. cuz i really dont know.
ever since last year me and Alicia have been planning our 15th birthday partys. We were getting so fucking excited when it was getting closer, but then marisah desides to throw her a surprise party. And obviously i wasnt invited, you wanna know why?! because she doesnt think that it would be right if i was there. WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN! I'm so pissed, i almost gave up the surprise and told Alicia, cuz u know why? thats just how fucking mean i am. No wait i wouldnt do that, what about all the other people that are going to her party. That just wouldnt be mean it would be fucking rotton. So my sister and i were going to my aunts this weekend. And notice how i said were. my sister is but im not, u know why? its cuz i have to give up going to boston for the weekend cuz i have to fucking babysit. Oh joy. im so fucking excited. woah wicked sarcastic.
I AM SO FUCKING PISSED!
today was a nice day. i wanted to wear a skirt, but i decided to be an original, and wore my pants folded up to my knees.
God i wish i was cool like some people and didnt invite the birthday girls bestfriend to a surprise party. <3 oh man i love being pissed
<3 leave the love
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I just got back from food shopping, i saw Mr. Bothmer. i love that guy.
mrbrick1342: oh
mrbrick1342: y you mad
xIfOnlyUculdCx: um probably cuz u made it such a proven fact that u hated her and that u thought she was a whore, then u go out with her again cuz she said "she'd do anything to have you back"
mrbrick1342: i know what i said it was cuz i wa smad i still had feelings for her tho
xIfOnlyUculdCx: fine.
xIfOnlyUculdCx: do u have ANY idea how much i fucking like you?
xIfOnlyUculdCx: and how i've NEVER stopped?
xIfOnlyUculdCx: and the fact that I would do anything to get u back.
xIfOnlyUculdCx: i bet u dont.
xIfOnlyUculdCx: say something; please
mrbrick1342: ok i dont no what to say you want me to say yeah i kew you liked me but right now i have feelings for elena that i cant ignor
xIfOnlyUculdCx: oh well, its not like i'll get ove ru ne time soon, so i guess i can wait longer
mrbrick1342: g2g bye
xIfOnlyUculdCx: bye...
mrbrick1342: P.S. can you change your icon it pisses me off it makes you look like a whore
xIfOnlyUculdCx: fine.
By the way.... im not changing it.
So today, i had a WICKED good hair day. so i decided to take some pictures!!! <3
( this is what happens when im single... )
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[14 Apr 2004|06:53pm] |
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steve dumped me. aj's going out with the whore.
such a grand life.
( Orangeness )
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[08 Apr 2004|06:45pm] |
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So Ashley is going to prom, with Josh. and Kristen is going to prom with Shawn. and even though i didn't tell either of them, im wicked pissed. Its like Ashley said that she wanted to take some one who would do stuff, and yeah, i shouldnt really care that much, im just a freshman, but she always tells me stuff and how we should hang out more, but its like i dont know. and i really don't care, its like Kristen likes Brody, and so do i but, i mean, if Kristen likes Brody, but is going to prom with Shawn then doesnt that mean that, she really doesnt like Brody? what the hell i am, so confused.
So here i am sitting here, wicked confused, wicked upset, and wicked scared that i might lose the person that means the most to me. And i am really wishing that he will read this because, i feel that i betrayed him, and i did, i didnt trust him i didnt think he liked me so i told Nick to talk to him, and well he said a little more then just simple talk. He said, that Steve shouldnt talk to me anymore because he wasnt treating me right. Which he wasn't but i really miss talking to him... OH WELL,
Heres a list of things that SUCK
- Boys
- Prom
- Being Sick
- the Dentist
- Rating Communities, only when im rejected though (_cuteness_)
- making stupid lists.
- Missing my favorite song on the radio
- eating breakfast
- eating lunch
- eating dinner as a family
- being alone
- being mad
- Steve not talking to me
- Nick living so far away
- Rene living so far away
- not passing classes
- not being able to go to AJ's next weekend because i am going to my aunts (doesnt completly suck though only kinda)
- the fact that megan moved
- marisah and me not being friends anymore
- having to stop when ever i say a name so i can bold it so people know its a name
- and not being able to finish this stupid list beacause I have to get off the computer.
so im going now, i guess i will write tomorrow, that is if im not completly grounded because of my grades... oh well shit happens, leave a comment!
<3 i love you guys, who ever read this that is, and Ashley and Kristen, dont be mad at me, i just had to get this out of my head
( Isnt it Weird Lyrics )
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